The One Blue Light in the Darkest of Places

In a small town one does not see many street lights nor does one need street lights, the moon and stars are usually so bright that you can see at night almost as good as you can see during the day, but last night was different clouds covered the sky making it pitch black. You could not even see your hand when it was right in front of you. I went to bed that night, but not for long, something odd made me just wake up and I am not that easily awakened. When I woke I noticed a bright blue light coming from outside my window, the town had no street lights and it was too bright for a car, so I thought what could this be? I laid there for awhile thinking what could this light be, when finally my curiosity for the light got the best of me and made me stand up bare skinned to check the light that was so odd to me.

A chill went down my bones when I saw the light. I felt then like I was under the control of it's blue beams that were piercing my eyes. It seemed to influence me as I stood there dead tired, by the window. It was probably five minutes before I decided to go back to bed.

I turned around to head to my bed, but instead I found myself going downstairs without putting any clothes on. I unwilling walked outside in freezing night, I mean freezing, it must have been at most 30 degrees out there. I slowly walked towards this light as I try so hard to turn my feet around, even though I wanted to turn around I had a stronger feeling at the same time that I wanted to walk towards the light. As I arrived closer to the blue light I noticed it was just floating there, which for some reason at the moment seemed normal to me, and did not stop me from continuing to walk forward under the influence of it high beams. I was close enough to touch it, so I reached my hand out and when I did this the blue light just faded out of sight, leaving nothing behind, but darkness.

The next thing I remember was being in bed. Now I thought that this whole thing was just a really realistic, controlling, odd, and strange dream. This gave me comfort form the fear I had of what happen to me, but my comfort of the thought that the experience of the blue light was just a really realistic dream, went away that morning during breakfast.

We were eating like normal when my uncle said that this annoying blue light kept him up most of the night. When I asked him if he checked it out, he said no that he was too tired. That was not what scared me though. What scared me and made me realise it was all real, was when my sister asked me "What was it Gus? I saw you go outside to check it out." Then she just walked away before I could say anything. My uncle did not seem to care, he went on eating and reading his newspaper. This terrified me, and made me sit there frozen for a long time thinking about the whole thing, wondering what all of it meant.

The Promise

For many years my sister has been really close to me, always trying to know everything I am doing and always looking up to me for what to do next, it was annoying, but I liked the feeling of having someone look up to me. After our parents left and abandoned us, she changed, she no longer talk to me, in fact it was like she hated me for what happened. She blamed me for the whole thing and I did not blame her for blaming me, I failed her.

I made her promise once when she was ten and our parents were fighting, it was nothing big, just a normal fight, but it freaked my little sister out and I remember her running to my room, and crying on my bed. I laid down next to her to comfort her and tell her that everything was ok, there is where I promised her in these words, "I promise you. with all my heart that we will always be a family together, all of us, I promise you that mom and dad will not leave us alone, I promise." I broke that promise the day our parents left and that is why Lenora has all the right to blame me, she has the right to no longer believe in me and no longer trust me.

I don't even trust myself anymore, I don't know what to put my faith in. If I think about the only thing making me strong enough to handle all of this and the only thing keeping me from falling apart is the orchard, it is giving me the secruity from the outside world that I need, but for Lenora I can not say the same thing she is replacing her feeling of security that she use to get with me and our family with the comfort of random guys that temperaly fill the empty place in her heart.

It worries me to see her everyday deticating herself to a new guy and when he lets her down it doesn't seem to affect her, she just goes and finds another to play with. I've tried talking to her, but she wont listen to me, let alone talk to me. My uncle fights with all the time about how late she stays out, when she goes out, and where she goes out to. I am losing my sister and it is because of me and I do not know what to do.